Finding JoyPosted: June 25, 2015
To those who got this post prematurely, my apologies… I accidentally hit publish instead of save! Oops!
Happy Almost Friday! I realize it’s been a hot second since I posted…and that’s kind of becoming the story of this little corner of the internet.
In all honesty, I’ve been writing…just not here. I fully admit that I have been selfish and kept it all in my red composition notebook. There is something very therapeutic about writing in cursive with blue ink in a cheap little notebook. It’s a feeling that you just can’t capture typing on a computer.
Anyway, I’ve been at the new job for a little over three months and it’s been quite the adventure. It hasn’t been easy and I’ve had moments of discouragement and frustration… but I truly feel that this is where I am supposed to be. I’m learning to continually trust God in ALL things and to give everything to Him. This is huge for me, because I am pretty stubborn and like to do things on my own. But I’m learning.
My first week into this new venture, our head pastor died. Ben and I were pretty close to him, so it was tough in and of itself, but it was made even more difficult by the complications that come with losing your boss a few days into a new job. This is where that learning to trust God in ALL things comes into play. It’s been a lot to deal with and to be honest, I’m not entirely sure what God’s plan is in this, but I know that He has one. So I’m trusting.
This whole experience has been quite humbling for me. I take a lot of pride in doing things well and knowing exactly what needs to be done when it comes to work… and there are days when that just doesn’t happen for me. Some days, I leave work feeling completely dejected and wondering if I did anything right…but God is still showing up. In all things.
I’ve had some wild and crazy things happen in the last few months… and I’ve been in situations that I never would have dreamed of. But through it all, I know that I’m not alone.
Even with the sadness and frustration, I’m still seeing good… I have a tendency to get caught up in negativity and to get down… and while I still have those days, I’m seeing His hand at work. Our pastor’s wife (who is also a pastor) preached an amazing sermon on the importance of celebration-of choosing JOY. So that’s what we are doing…finding joy in the small things, little by little, day by day.
So I guess this post is just a quick note to tell you that I’m still alive…. I’m still learning and growing and dealing. But I’m still here.
Even with the the grief and frustration of losing a mentor, we are still finding joy. We are choosing joy and finding grace.